We’ve had a hard spring and end of the school year this year as mother and daughter. With the sudden passing of her preschool teacher 10 days before school ended, and her first summer of full-time daycare, we’ve had many ups and downs.
Blake is finally coming into her own as a little girl, and it’s really starting to show. We’ve had many conversations about some serious subjects that I just wasn’t ready for. She has so many questions that I just don’t know the answers to, and as a first-time parent I never imagined having to answer. Honestly, I feel like a lot of this has been harder on me than her. I worry so much about how any of this will affect her longterm.
Being a mother is hard work, and it seems to get even harder as your child grows up. I can’t shelter her as much from life, and that freaks me out. I wanted her to have this perfect childhood free from any type of trauma, but that’s just not realistic. Instead I need to focus on what I can control, and just be there for her as much as possible. There are so many things in life that happen that are out of our control, and as parents that makes our job even harder. Comforting littles is not an easy task, especially when you are unsure about it all yourself.
This spring, we set up a Mommy&Me photoshoot to bond and get some photos taken for Mother’s Day. Blake was very uncooperative as I expected, but you don’t see that in the photos. They turned out so well, and I will always treasure these and the time with her at this age. These photos put a lot of things into perspective for me, and I need to learn to live more in the moment. These photos definitely portray just that.
Photos by: Emily Peters Photography